Yesterday we mailed off our initial application for our adoption! I could squeal with excitement! This is something I've longed for. I've always felt called to adopt, like since before I was married I knew it was something I wanted. When Jordan and I got married we had a few conversations about adoption but for a few years he didn't feel that same burning desire. I never wanted to force it on him because I knew that it had to be something we both felt called to instead of a decision he was forced into or even one he "let me win". So I prayed. I prayed earnestly that God would place a desire in him for our family to one day bring a baby home. We didn't spend much, if any, time talking about it for years. Then we had Crews and Tate. They were born at 32 weeks so we spent 5 weeks in the NICU. While we were there a child was in the bed beside Crews who never had a single visitor. No parent showed up to rock him and feed him. He would cry and if a nurse was able she would come and comfort him (they did a wonderful job!) but his parents weren't there. One of the nights we left the NICU Jordan said to me, "We're going to adopt one day. If we could take him home with Crews and Tate, I'd do it." I had chills. I fell in love with the man even more. His heart is beautiful, y'all. He is compassionate and emotional and willing to move where the Spirit leads. I am so grateful.
So, here we are. Beginning our adoption process. We've gotten the question from multiple people who love us dearly, "why are you adopting?". I think the question stems from multiple places. Yes, the Lord has been gracious to give us biological children. Yes, it's expensive. Yes, it's possibly (read: probably) going to be a hard, frustrating road to bringing a baby home. Yes, there may be new things that we learn to handle that we never would otherwise. But y'all. If we are in Christ, we are all adopted. We have been called sons and daughters of the one, true God. We have the sweet, precious opportunity to live that out. To bring a child into our home and love them and raise them and call them one of our own. It is putting flesh on the Gospel. Don't hear me say we have it all figured out. We definitely don't. It's that God has called us to something and we desperately desire to follow.
"For in Christ Jesus you are all sons of God, through faith" - Galatians 3:26
We are excited and hopeful and truly beside ourselves as we start this journey. We'd love to share our experience with you and we'd love for you to pray alongside us. As we walk through this I'd love to share specific ways you can pray. So for tonight here are a few:
1. Please pray for wisdom as we make decisions. It seems that at every turn there is another big decision to make (country, adoption agency, home study agency, gender, what type of special needs, etc). We'd love for the Holy Spirit to speak clearly and loudly into each decision.
"But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come." - John 16:13
2. Please pray for smooth paperwork. After being accepted with our agency we received lots of paperwork, essentially a handbook for the entire process. One of the initial pages said, welcome to your "paperwork pregnancy". Please pray that as we work through loads of paperwork that things would go smoothly!
3. Our last request gives me chills to write. The reality is that our baby is possibly alive right now. That in a crib across the world there is a baby that is ours. Would you join us in praying for protection over him or her? That they would be cared for well during this time and that God would place a hedge around them. Hemming him/her in behind and before, and laying His hand upon them (Ps. 139:5).
"You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me" - Psalm 139:5
What a sweet, sweet way for me to end my birthday! In anticipation of a new babe coming into our family. If I could choose any way to spend my 30th year it would be like this. I will keep you posted of our progress as we continue. We covet your prayers!
(Note: this post was started last week. We've since been accepted by our agency and are moving forward with our home study!)